The LGBT Seat at Christ’s Table

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This essay is written in response to a thread about the importance of LGBT Christians speaking out and being visible and active congregantsdespite having been wounded by organized religion. There’s a tendency to throw Jesus out with the holy water, but I’d like to offer another option. What follows is a recounting of my firsthand experience dealing with those who would deny my invitation and rightful seat at the table. Peace be with you.

As a forty-eight-inch tall, gay, black man, I encounter plenty of people who think and demonstrate through their actions, “You don’t belong because — ” With that said, my need for a self-concept that is not tethered to a human perspective is integral for my well-being.

My relationship with Christ serves that purpose and has been a good thing. A very good thing. I am well aware of the fruit that relationship has produced in my life; including understanding myself, the world, how I fit into, and most importantly my value to Christ — which supersedes the opinion of anyone.

And because I value that relationship and the positive effects it has had on me, whenever the opportunity presents itself, I talk about it with anyone who’s interested (or write about it, if prompted), but do so with respect, care, and an awareness that not everyone has the same faith, and some claim no faith at all.

You may ask, What is this relationship you speak of?

That’s a whole ’nother topic for another day, but how wild is it that the following was my daily meditation for today?

July 18

I am nearer than you think, richly present in all your moments. You are connected to me by Love-bonds that nothing can sever. However, you may sometimes feel alone because your union with Me is invisible. Ask Me to open your eyes so that you can find Me everywhere. The more aware you are of My Presence, the safer you feel. This is not some sort of escape from reality, it is tuning in to ultimate reality. I am far more Real than the world you can see, hear, and touch. Faith is the confirmation of things we do not see and the conviction of their reality, perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses.

— Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

A great many people have been offended by the church; sometimes by means of a hasty slip of the tongue or a misunderstanding, and other times damaged through a volitional abuse of power. In no way should the wretched and selfish actions of those who claim to be a representative of Christ deter anyone from attempting to find Christ.

Make no mistake. Christ is very clear in his admonition to those who would harm those in seeking a relationship with him:

It would be better for you if a millstone were hung around your neck and you were thrown into the sea than for you to cause one of these little ones to stumble.
Luke 17:2 (NRSV)

Trauma can be an effective inhibitor. Really. Why would anyone want to return to the scene of a crime perpetrated against them when no form of reconciliation has been offered, let alone recognition of the injury?

Looking at the Gospel of John, Christ always sought out those whom the “religious” of his day deemed outcasts, unclean, and undeserving. But notice, his harshest words were always for those who deemed themselves in the know, the elect, the keepers of the law. If you look around, know-it-alls still exist today and they’re spouting the same harassments as religious leaders in Christ’s day. You’re not welcome here. You don’t belong. The Gospel is not for you.

I encourage any LGBT ex-Christian who desires to rekindle their relationship with Christ to pursue that longing wholeheartedly. He is awaiting your return. Nothing else will fill that void. Find a congregation, a denomination that speaks to you, that speaks to your heart, and accepts you the same as Christ accepts you: as you are, without precondition.

As a lifelong follower of Christ, I am loathed to do what I refer to as “church shopping.” Visiting churches is a huge investment of time and usually takes me a couple of repeat visits before I can get an accurate reading on a congregation. Over the years, I’ve come to recognize three elements I look for in a potential church home:

  • corporate worship expressed in singing hymns, praying, and partaking in communion; different denominations worship differently
  • feeding upon the word of God as revealed by clergy in their sermons and scripture; even within a particular church, clerics can and do differ in how they deliver sermons as well as the topics they choose to emphasize
  • fellowship with other members of God’s family within a congregation; some are more structured, others are more informal

Singing with wild abandon and an open heart was something I learned in Pasadena Foursquare in California. The music moved me in a way that freed me of my previous inhibitions to praise the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit with everything in me.

The Lord has led me to churches and denominations that have revealed his nature in ways I could never have imagined. As such, I’ve come to know some phenomenal pastors, priests, and canons who challenge me in my walk. The thing that I’ve found most appealing about these shepherds is a mix of humility in revealing their frailties while at the same time amplifying Christ’s teachings on how to love the Father, one another, and live in a way that both convicts and inspires me.

As a functioning introvert, fellowship has always been a bit of a challenge for me, as I’m not fond of crowds and get more out of one-to-one interactions as opposed to group experiences. Those between-service coffee klatches have never afforded me the best opportunities to connect with people. But Bible studies, home groups, and casual outings with deep discussions never leave me wanting.

I’ve been blessed to belong to congregations in which all three elements — worship, teaching, and fellowship — were present in relatively equal amounts.

At my current church home, the physical space caught my eye, but the worship and liturgy hooked me. I doubt seriously that finer worship can be found anywhere in the diocese. There’s something about a pipe organ and talented choir in the hands of a skillful music director that takes me to the gates of Heaven and gives me a hint of what the afterlife will sound like. To say the experience is transcendent is not an overstatement.

Fellowship at my church has been a trickier element to grab hold of. I first attended during Eastertide 2007. The priest gave a message that seemed to be written for me and me alone, and the choir sang one of my hymns, #204, “Now the Green Blade Riseth.” With the convergence of those two, I knew I was home.

For the first year or so, I skipped all the pomp and circumstance of the main service because I was unaccustomed to juggling the Prayer Book, a hymnal, and a bulletin. At my previous parish, All Saints Pasadena, all the prayers, et cetera, were printed in the bulletin, which circumvented any mental gymnastics. Instead, I opted for the evening services, acquired better book maneuvering skills, and gradually insinuated my way into the parish.

Mind you, I was in my late forties when I began attending my current church. In my mind, reconciling my sexuality with my faith had been settled years before, and my days of living in the closet were long behind me. While I don’t wear my sexuality on my sleeve, my take on the matter is this: how can anyone not know that I’m a gay man? Once one person knows, I figure the news spreads like wildfire and everybody knows.

For anyone not of the dominant culture (be it gender, ethnicity, appearance, physicality, sexual orientation, or whatever distinguishing characteristic one might use to label a person as “other”), my church can be a cold place, but I was determined to make it my church home because I felt called by Christ to attend. And with a personal invitation from Jesus, how could I not accept?

Gradually, I’ve found friends, built strong relationships, and grown to feel that I belong. Thanks to opportunities afforded me by the pastoral staff, congregation, and diocesan office, over the past twelve years I’ve served in a variety of capacities.

Don’t think for a minute that my tale is one only of milk and honey. There have been many wormwood and gall episodes I could have lived without (and I’m sure there’ll be more). My diocese has a reputation for being one of the most stringently conservative of our denomination in the country, but maintaining my relationship with Christ is important enough to me to not allow anyone to stand in my way.

I’m currently involved in a row over a basic tenet: the care and feeding of sheep. It’s neither fun nor enjoyable, but as a member of Christ’s body, it’s my responsibility to speak the truth in love and to listen as well. Plus, I know these two things for sure: 1) it will pass and 2) there is no such thing as a perfect church. Not as long as there are humans involved.

I hope that my presence and involvement in my church community will enlighten people on the conservative end of the spectrum who might have a more shortsighted view of people with disabilities, minorities, and LGBT people that they have more in common with “us” than they imagined — namely, our shared humanity.

Am I am activist? No. I wouldn’t say so at all. I’m just a guy who’s accepting Christ’s invitation to have a seat at his table, join him for a meal, and accept his offer of salvation regardless of what the Pharisees and naysayers believe.

To LGBT ex-Christians, know that there are Christians — even entire congregations — who welcome LGBT people. Their salutation is authentic. There are most certainly congregations led by priests who are more concerned that you accept Christ’s offer of salvation than what’s transpired in your past, or the number of tattoos and piercings you have, or the color of your hair, or who you love.

There are churches that value diversity so much that they afford all of their members the right to marry same-gender partners in the church. And some churches have clergy who are gay and in same-gender marriages. I even know of several priests whose ministries are focused on the challenges LGBT teens face, including homelessness.

They’re out there. You simply have to look.

Sometimes the problem with churches isn’t so much that they’re unwilling to welcome specifically LGBT people. Theirs is a much bigger problem: the inability to welcome anyone who doesn’t fit their preconceived notion of who’s acceptable. Don’t believe me? Check out the Parable of the Good Samaritan.

Those who deny LGBT Christians full inclusion in their church communities look a lot like people begging for a millstone necklace, especially given that Christ himself says the following:

“For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life.”
John 3:16 (New Revised Standard Version)

Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness but will have the light of life.”
John 8:12 (NRSV)

“I have come as light into the world, so that everyone who believes in me should not remain in the darkness.”
John 12:46 (NRSV)

“This is indeed the will of my Father, that all who see the Son and believe in him may have eternal life; and I will raise them up on the last day.”
John 6:40 (NRSV)

You’ve received your invitation. He’s awaiting your RSVP.

Love one another.